Job Hunt
Just applied for a job at Facebook in Seattle. I also applied for a job at PACCAR in Bellevue Washington, a company I worked at in the 90’s. I am hopeful that I will hear something from them soon. My stress level is through the roof right now. But I’m continuing to keep busy, I […]
Damn Dog
My new journal fell on the floor during the night and Georgie ate it. Grrr!
Anxiety
I try to keep busy and look for work every day. Most days I apply for one or two jobs. The waiting is what gets to me and sends my anxiety level through the roof. I exercise and read to keep my mind off of my troubles. Some days I’m more successful than others. I […]
Trying and Failing
Doing my best to keep my life together. I’m still here, so I guess that counts as something. But I’m not happy, and that makes me feel like a failure. Connections that I thought I had made have fallen apart. I’m not smart enough or rich enough I guess. That hurts so much. I may […]
Trying and Failing
Doing my best to keep my life together. I’m still here, so I guess that counts as something. But I’m not happy, and that makes me feel like a failure. Connections that I thought I had made have fallen apart. I’m not smart enough or rich enough I guess. That hurts so much. I may […]
Stupid
I let my emotions get away from me. Five years of controlled response gone at the first hope of love. I cannot be the person someone needs if I can’t control my feelings. Hard lesson to learn.
Have to laugh…
Life is not fair, and yes I never expected that it would be that way.
Trust
A friend stated today that someone stabbed them in the back, and as a result they don’t trust any of their friends. While I can relate to feeling like this at times, I can’t bring myself to the point where I trust no one. I hope I never get to that point in my life. […]
Good and bad
It’s been a rough few weeks. Seems like holidays are always rough when dealing with depression and anxiety. The thing is, I’m doing better than usual. A friend has been helping me through the days. I am thankful for the people who have given me a helping hand. I know that I’d be in a […]
Writing
I’ve tried to write on a regular basis lately. A friend mentioned how difficult that can be when you’re depressed. I tend to agree, although I’ve read books and articles that recommend channeling your feelings into your writing. I find that to be a sound idea that is much harder to do than it sounds. […]